I get SO pissed off at people who think Asperger's and/or other autism spectrum disorders are 'great' and 'a blessing' and so much better than being NeuroTypical.
Who the fuck is proud to be having a neuropsychological/ developmental disorder?
Hell, I'm not.
I hate my Asperger/HFA as much as I hate my Dyscalculia, because it holds me back, disables me to do things like normal people do, makes me an anxious wreck. If something unexpected happens (for example; people invite me to visit them in two days) I'm done for; I get aggressive, unreasonable and pathetically nervous and worst of all I need someone else to tell me that, because I can't even see it for myself. I think humans are scary, unpredicable creatures, who should be avoided at all costs. I don't understand them and they don't understand me. People stopped asking me to join them at parties, because I cowered in corners because of the sensory overload.
Does that sound 'cool' to you?
I want to be cured and if I have to be the 'devil's advocate' to say it, so be it.
I actually needed to get that off of my chest ever since people gave McCain a hard time about his cure-autism-comment (of course his ignorance was still awful). |